Thursday, September 24, 2015

Before 30...

Hey everyone! It's pretty much the end of September already! Can you believe?! This entire year has flown by me. I can't tell you where it went, but I can tell you I made the best of it. I'm always meaning to make more posts but time escaped me. A lot of the things I did recently was Planning. Planning is a big part of my life. I know that "man plans and God laughs" but planning is crucial to goals and self-development. It's important to assess where you are, and where you want to be and plan to get there. Last December I made a list of all the things I wanted to accomplish, and got to it. Some things were:
  • Lose 10 lbs, of course this is always a goal. ✔️
  • Read 15 books by Dec 31, 2015‼️ Only 9/15 so far... ⚠️:soon:
  • Work on my gardening skills ✔️
  • Get involved in a community based nonprofit organization ⚠️:soon:?
  • Get a room in my home started ✔️ 
  • Finish the last few parts of a previous room I started until it's time to start Phase 2 of a bigger project plan ✔️
  • Proactively work on our finances and save more ✔️
  • Get our fence up in the backyard ✔️
  • Spend all my remaining time with or keeping in touch with my family and friends. ✔️
  • Have lots of fun ✔️
  • Stop worrying so much ⚠️ :soon:? 
  • Work on blog posts. ⚠️:soon:?
  • Paint a space in our home all by myself ✔️
  • Get rid of any clutter in closets and home. ⚠️ :soon: almost done

When I read stuff like this  --->
 I cant help but think back. I had it all figured out from very young. Now I'm not sure I know what's next...

Now that it's September and I'm assessing what's done and what isn't. I hadn't realized that I also had a list of things I wanted to do before 30 that aren't done as well!! =( Some things I wanted to do before 30 that were years and years in the making were:
  • Get my H.S. body back.... 10 more lbs. away! ⚠️ :soon:
  • Get my tattoos... maybe next year I'll do this... still undecided. ⚠️:soon:?
  • Close up shop for babies. ✔️
  • Become vegetarian ⚠️?
  • Become more spiritual.
  • Become care-free again, with blind faith. Grow more but without losing my childish free-spirit. ⚠️:soon:? 
  • Grow my career. Whatever that is... it's definitely growing in entrepreneurship and personal branding. ✔️
  • Stable home, no more moving around so much ✔️
  • Start and raise a family ✔️
  • Have a phenomenal romantic relationship ✔️
  • Pay attention to Self-care, Self-love, Self-awareness ✔️
  • Become Diet, Exercise, Nutritionally Savvy. ✔️
  • Learn how to Sew things from curtains to clothes. ⚠️ 
  • Learn how to speak Spanish fluently ⚠️
  • Learn how to make better cakes ⚠️
  • Learn more patience, tolerance, & time management ⚠️
  • Take a few classes both educational and for fun ⚠️
I started to get overwhelmed last week when I realized it was September and so much was left undone. Even mini-tasks around the house overwhelmed me. I simply had no energy left, and between my anxiety, and the things I stress about and not sleeping well, it finally hit me that what's the big hurry? Certain things shouldn't feel like a chore, it shouldn't stress me out, it should be a hobby. We were having people over the other day and I was stressing what should be on the menu, and my husband said "Why does everything need to be such a production with you?" It hit me that I need to relax. I don't know why I stress the little things. I guess I just want my world to be a Utopian society with frills and frolic, with no stress, but my standards are high so it's expected to be stressed when undertaking any task with me.

So this week, I've decided that I will have to just do what I can and if I don't finish by the end of this December then it's all okay too, I will keep working towards goals, and this time create a vision board to keep me focused on new dreams, a positive attitude and the point of goals; growth by experiences. I just placed all this importance on one event of entering the next decade that I didn't realize that it really doesn't change a damn thing about me, if anything I hope I enter this next decade with more confidence, determination,  courage, strength and vibrance than ever before. I want to seek out more adventure, more thrill, and more excitement in my experiences. I will add "become more flexible" to next year's goals.

"At the end of the day, the goals are simple: safety and security." -Jodi Rell

If you're in your 40's what's the best insight you can give me about aging and managing this aging process with a type A personality? What do you wish you knew when you were in your 20's and 30's?